Mihai Moca, Sketchbook 001

CD: What do your drawings mean?

MM: I cannot say I first think of a subject and then start drawing, my drawings are just exactly what crosses my mind the moment I set the ballpoint pen on the sheet. They are my thoughts and my feelings on a piece of paper.

CD: What makes you start drawing and what makes you stop drawing?

MM: I start because I want to submerge in the ocean of my thoughts. This is how I clean my mind, how I revisit what I have said or done, and in the mean time it’s like a meditation – I focus on the details and textures of the drawing and I forget everything, sometimes even myself. What stops me…time and people saying: you should have drawn it differently, why have you drawn like that, that didn’t turn out great. Maybe some people aren’t bothered by this kind of comments, but they really get to me sometimes. When I was not admitted in the Arts University I stopped drawing for 2 years. But it came back to me and page by page I started drawing again.

CD: Talent or Practice?

MM: I was told many times that my hand is from God, that I have talent, but I honestly believe talent can be taught. I don’t consider myself talented; I consider I learned everything I know, so my answer is Practice.

CD: What do you do with the pages you draw on?

MM: For the moment I draw in a sketchbook. The pages will remain in the sketchbook and I intend preserving them. I am still thinking if I should draw on the cover of the sketchbook. I carry it with me wherever I go. The pages that are not in the sketchbook, I stick them on the walls of my room. I started doing that after I had a dream in which I dreamt I was waking up but I was still in the dream – 1,2,3,4,5, times the same thing in the same dream. And in this dream, my room was filled with drawings stuck on the walls of my room, and even drawings stuck on other drawings. The day after, I stuck the first drawing on my wall.

What was your first compulsive drawing?

MM: I remember vaguely. I don’t know what happened to those drawings. They were symmetrical circles tied together with some lines. I liked them a lot because I was drawing on math paper and I could make the circles symmetrically related to 2 or 3 axes. That was when I was 6 or 7. I consider it compulsive because it was not a character or an object. I remember my mom asking me what that was and I couldn’t answer.

Have you tried to impress girls with your drawings?

MM: I think so in a way. Not with the drawings in the sketchbook, but rather with portraits. I was trying to express what I saw and felt for her. I was also drawing roses, thinking the drawn roses never fade and die.

How do you think people would appreciate an exhibition with your drawings?

MM: Good question! I am still thinking of that. I am afraid they won’t like what they see. Moreover I have a friend that keeps getting me down telling me that these sketchbook drawings are stupid, that they don’t mean anything, that they are nonsense and childish, and if I were to make a debut (it made me laugh when he said debut), I should draw something impressive, a manifesto, something technically impressive and with a message, but what I believe is that if somebody would do that with that intentionally, that wouldn’t be art, it would be just a fake. You don’t draw to impress, you draw to express. Coming back to your question, sadly I am a pessimist. I have been one all my life. I am expecting people to come, but not to like what they see

What is your favorite drawing?

MM: I would say the first drawing in the sketchbook. Because it’s the first.

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CD: In what conditions do you draw the best?

MM: Best and best I draw when I am happy, and when I am happy it’s harder to start, but after it’s impossible to stop. Once I am set on fire, nobody can stop me.

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